First timer… NOT
hmmmm i cant say that this is my first time starting to make a blog, it just that.. i dont know 
, writing is not my thingy, and im more like a verbal person rather than just putting some words in a document sheet, but somehow i do have somethin goin on my mind, and thats the time i started to think of making it in real, and also knowing the fact that im no good writer so forgive my inappropiate languages in here, and sometimes it might in bilingual mode and it might also be talking about movies, since im kinda a movieholic but uuuuhh oh wait, wait a minute 
, this is my fucking blog! 
i do write what i wanna wriiiteee 
wheeeeee okie then, so yeah here it is…
April 3rd 2009, Friday, 10:32 PM
I just came back from a movie, Defiance (good movie, btw), which actually i was supposed to be stuck in front of my lappy, workin on my thesis, aaahhh bad wordddd, not that shit again! yeah i know im kinda avoiding it, well who wouldnt?!?? its been like almost a year just to finish some chapters! and till now it hasnt finished yet! maybe im not giving my best, YET, but hey i do need some support, and i do not need some fuckin delays with those some mental stupid game askin away this and that, come on! moooovveee the fuuuckk onn!!!! yeah im pissed… im so fuckin tired of doin this, but i know this the path i must go on with…. hhhhhh……hhhhhhhhh…. dammit….
I do aware that i have no time for horsing around, but this is my escape, my kinda fucking sweet escape, which i’ve been wasting too much on it, and now im gonna have to get the hell outta there, and somehow that times like this, i do feel like… im alone, i realize that everyone has their own things to do, their lifes and jobs and else, and i miss the accompany of them, their existence to bein next to me, i need their help on this.. i cant be alone, well human cant really be an independent persona, its like it takes two to tango, people cant just live individually, cuz we do live in sosial circle, we dont live in Mars well i bet whatever on Mars cant even live alone, what im trying to say is, its really frustrated bein alone, well yeah theres nothin wrong bein alone, though, it just..its tiring that you need to deny it, that you’re strong in doin things, that you’re independent, that you can just cover things by yourself, well its good if you can do those stuff, i can do it, it just i prefer not…
well enough complaining, now i think i gotta do somethin to make it real, thesis awaits… sometimes i wonder why in the world would i have to choose this topic? well i can say i do concern with whatever bein happened to women, well i am a woman, but this struggle of women, it just too insane, it counters the mainstream, revolution is crazy, its as crazy as the system that exists, oh well i gotta cut the crap, im gonna have to just finish it all! aaaaaaaaaarrggghhhhhh
